I agree that with any holiday (Easter) or family birthday (Jeff's, Joe's right around the corner), my thoughts are more focused on the fact that Joe is not here. However, there is not a day that goes by that I do not think of him. I too have had Joe visit me in my dreams. I am happy that at least there I still see him but they are some of the hardest days I have had because it makes me so sad when I wake up and realize it was just a dream. The last one was there was a knock on my front door and I opened it to find Joe standing there and he came in as if nothing was wrong and I kept saying it had been fifteen years since he had been gone and we thought he had died and he said "no he just needed to go away for awhile" then I woke up??? In another dream, I was driving and I parked my car next to a car like Dad's old Delta 88 (the car Joe had) and Joe was in the driver's side and I was so happy to see him that I went up to him and started talking to him asking him how he was, where he had been, but he wouldn't answer me, he just kept smiling, though he didn't speak. Then I woke up. I always try to figure out what the dream means or why it happens. Is Joe trying to contact me to say he is okay and happy, or is it just my wishful thinking that he is okay and happy??? I don't know but it is very hard indeed. I just wish he were here.

Luv,

Beth