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Well, that's that.
Oct. 18th, 2005 07:45 pmGot called into the manager's office today for a follow-up meeting. They did not warn me ahead of time that they were scheduling a meeting--so I was totally unprepared. I am not good at "off the cuff" discussions with higher ups. Because I freeze up, I get totally tongue-tied and I tend to get very emotional--so I wind up either in tears or angry silence.
Today was "angry silence" day.
They ganged up on me without warning. They said they had discussed what I had talked about with the manager last week and decided to leave things as they are "for now". They also told me that I was "flawless" on the email responses to the customers (their words) and "fantastic" on the phones. They also think that "one day" they think I will be "ready" for the responsibility of being the "email lead". The biggest reason they won't let me do it now? Because in the past, I have "over-reacted" and then "apologized". The occasions have been when several bombs have been dropped on me (and other reps) without warning...
I admit that I am a very sensitive person. I react strongly at times and I admit it, emotionally. But, I have been working on those areas and thought I had shown them through my recent actions that I have been working to change.
Apparently not good enough.
They had also heard that I am looking for another job. You know what? Tough. I don't have to drive for an hour to and from work to do a telephone job. There are plenty of those right in the town I live in. The biggest reason I have been making that trek has been because I loved the job I was doing.
Fortunately, State Farm, where my husband works, is going to be hiring again soon. Hubby actually got the job they offered to ME last year. The reason I turned it down? See above. But, it seems that my loyalty was repaid with smeg. So, I told hubby to let State Farm know that if they call me again...the answer will be "yes". So, he told HR, got the number and I called and also let them know myself.
So, guess I'll be starting over AGAIN. Maybe I'll win the lottery. I wish that would happen. Shoot, I don't even care if I win the BIG prize...I'd "settle" for a couple hundred thousand. Enough to invest so I don't have to work.
Anyway, that's what's happening now. I'm pissed and bummed. Just going to keep my head down, and do my job and nothing more. When/if State Farm comes knocking, I'm going to answer this time.
Today was "angry silence" day.
They ganged up on me without warning. They said they had discussed what I had talked about with the manager last week and decided to leave things as they are "for now". They also told me that I was "flawless" on the email responses to the customers (their words) and "fantastic" on the phones. They also think that "one day" they think I will be "ready" for the responsibility of being the "email lead". The biggest reason they won't let me do it now? Because in the past, I have "over-reacted" and then "apologized". The occasions have been when several bombs have been dropped on me (and other reps) without warning...
I admit that I am a very sensitive person. I react strongly at times and I admit it, emotionally. But, I have been working on those areas and thought I had shown them through my recent actions that I have been working to change.
Apparently not good enough.
They had also heard that I am looking for another job. You know what? Tough. I don't have to drive for an hour to and from work to do a telephone job. There are plenty of those right in the town I live in. The biggest reason I have been making that trek has been because I loved the job I was doing.
Fortunately, State Farm, where my husband works, is going to be hiring again soon. Hubby actually got the job they offered to ME last year. The reason I turned it down? See above. But, it seems that my loyalty was repaid with smeg. So, I told hubby to let State Farm know that if they call me again...the answer will be "yes". So, he told HR, got the number and I called and also let them know myself.
So, guess I'll be starting over AGAIN. Maybe I'll win the lottery. I wish that would happen. Shoot, I don't even care if I win the BIG prize...I'd "settle" for a couple hundred thousand. Enough to invest so I don't have to work.
Anyway, that's what's happening now. I'm pissed and bummed. Just going to keep my head down, and do my job and nothing more. When/if State Farm comes knocking, I'm going to answer this time.
