Kira-cat 1997 (or 98)-July 16, 2012

The vet got us in this morning @ 8:45. He examined her and found a huge lump near her throat which hadn't been there last time he examined her. He told us that sometimes, antibiotics cause infection to concentrate in one spot. He wanted to see if it was a tumor or an abscess. We left her there and went home as he said he would know in about an hour.

At 9:30 he called and said, basically, it was not something that could be treated and we should come.

We went down to the vet and he told us there was a tumor in her throat which was so large it had shifted her esophagus an inch or more to the left. That was why she was having trouble swallowing. He said if she was a younger cat, he might recommend surgery, but as it was he really didn't think that was to right route to take.

We agreed. We did not want to see her suffer any longer.

She was still slightly sedated. I held her for a few minutes, then the doctor gave her the shot. I had my arms around her as she slipped away. It was very peaceful and very quick.

At the moment, we are having a bit of an Irish wake for her. First we toasted her with champagne, then we poured a huge rum and coke--so we're both slightly tipsy. Him more than me cos he can't hold his liquor.

Hubby and I had taken pictures with her this morning--so we would have something more to remember her by.

Pippin & Merry

We left the carrier out today after we came home.
( The other cats' reactions. )

It seems so odd...this morning Kira was warm and alive, now she's just gone. Hubby was not as prepared as he thought he was and I've had to hold in a lot of my own emotions today because he just completely broke down.

I removed Kira's breakfast saucer from the sink, washed and dried it, and now it's sitting behind the lovely box in which we will place her ashes when we get them. I did not want hubby, who feeds the cats their breakfast, to see that dish and break down again. I also tossed the medicine we were giving her.

He went to bed...I'm still up. My eyes are burning with unshed tears. I'm a bit afraid to go to bed as I fear I will cry then--because Kira always cuddled next to me and purred me to sleep.

Going to try work tomorrow. Hope I don't turn into a blubbering idiot.