Going back to work today
Nov. 30th, 2012 10:15 amI've been out for almost a week. Had a massive panic attack on Monday which quickly descended into overwhelming despair. By Tuesday night I was in a pit so deep I know I frightened my husband. I scared myself, too.
I haven't been in that dark place for years. Feeling worthless. Thinking of all the pills I have...
On Wednesday I realized I hadn't taken my antidepressant pills for a week. So, that may have had something to do with it.
I often skip them on the weekends because
( probably TMI ) I guess with the holiday last week, I just stopped and never started again.
I'm back on them now, been taking a double dose since Wednesday so am feeling somewhat better now. Only the usual anxieties plaguing me. I also cut back on the pain meds and the anxiety pills because I figured I didn't need so many downers.
But, I have to take the anxiety pills and pain pills today since I'll be in that office for eight hours.
I did manage to get some writing done the last couple of days. Hope to finish up the story this weekend and get it to the beta.
I haven't been in that dark place for years. Feeling worthless. Thinking of all the pills I have...
On Wednesday I realized I hadn't taken my antidepressant pills for a week. So, that may have had something to do with it.
I often skip them on the weekends because
I'm back on them now, been taking a double dose since Wednesday so am feeling somewhat better now. Only the usual anxieties plaguing me. I also cut back on the pain meds and the anxiety pills because I figured I didn't need so many downers.
But, I have to take the anxiety pills and pain pills today since I'll be in that office for eight hours.
I did manage to get some writing done the last couple of days. Hope to finish up the story this weekend and get it to the beta.