Going back to work today

[rayvyn2k]

I've been out for almost a week. Had a massive panic attack on Monday which quickly descended into overwhelming despair. By Tuesday night I was in a pit so deep I know I frightened my husband. I scared myself, too.

I haven't been in that dark place for years. Feeling worthless. Thinking of all the pills I have...

On Wednesday I realized I hadn't taken my antidepressant pills for a week. So, that may have had something to do with it.

I often skip them on the weekends because the medicine interferes with my ability to orgasm. I guess with the holiday last week, I just stopped and never started again.

I'm back on them now, been taking a double dose since Wednesday so am feeling somewhat better now. Only the usual anxieties plaguing me. I also cut back on the pain meds and the anxiety pills because I figured I didn't need so many downers.

But, I have to take the anxiety pills and pain pills today since I'll be in that office for eight hours.

I did manage to get some writing done the last couple of days. Hope to finish up the story this weekend and get it to the beta.

Comments

[dickgloucester.livejournal.com]

That sounds rough. *hugs* I hope you're back on an even keel again soon.

[rayvyn2k.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I think I am. :)

[tudorpot.livejournal.com]

My sister had her md change her meds for this reason. First time he had a woman tell him this. Hope you feel better soon.

[rayvyn2k.livejournal.com]

I did mention this to my doctor and he just told me to cut the dose in half. I rolled my eyes (in my head) and have just been not taking them over the weekends or dealing with enjoying sex with my hubby without "getting to the top". I have to take them every day for a time now to get it back into my system, so I won't be skipping any for a bit. I will mention it to the doctor again the next time I see him and ask him if there's another medicine that will not have the same side effects.