It's been a rough week

[rayvyn2k]

It's one week ago today that Kira left us. I still miss her so much--as does Hubby--and today was really hard. I wanted to stay home from work, but Hubby encouraged me to go. I broke down at my desk at 9:45, Hubby came over to my desk and I was able to lean on him while I collected myself.

Saturday, we got her ashes back...as I was moving them from the container the vet had into our container (the ashes are in a plastic bag), I just started crying all over again. I was hugging that baggy to my heart and rocking and sobbing...it didn't seem right to give our big girl and get back so little.

I have a little shrine for her next to the shrine I have for my deceased brother--her's isn't quite finished yet because I still need to print off a picture to add. I'll share once it's finished.

The hardest thing is looking at all of her favorite places to sleep, or play and not see her there.

I keep expecting to see her.

Comments

[shiv5468.livejournal.com]

For years I apologised to black bin bags when I bumped into them because I was so used to having a black shadow behind me that was labrador shaped that anything black behind me had to be a labrador. You do get used to them being there.

[rayvyn2k.livejournal.com]

Yes, that's the worst part.

[islandsmoke.livejournal.com]

Stepping over food and water bowls that aren't there anymore. I washed all Martha's toys and piled them on her bed, because I knew that there would be another dog someday. It was hard walking past it all the time and not seeing her there, but I think it would have been just as hard not seeing anything there.

And stepping around a dog that isn't there when you're cooking.

Yeah. It gets better, but they do have a piece of our hearts. Always.

[rayvyn2k.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean. We are overcompensating by spoiling our other two cats. New toys, scratching posts, catnip, extra food.