I finished

[rayvyn2k]

And my brain hurts. I am in a state of shock. I think I may have to abandon my fic now. I am reading everything I can find on all of the theories about the book. I don't know what to think. I wish book seven was coming out tomorrow.
There are spoiler-ish comments behind the link. Please be warned.

I am almost inconsolable. I want to believe that Dumbledore arranged everything that happened and that Snape was forced to do what he did. I have to re-read the book, but I won't be doing that right away.
I'm glad the Harry in my fic is as strong as the one in book six...not that it really matters now. I don't know if I have the heart to continue it anymore.
I really feel sorry for Guernica and KEC. I wonder what she's going to do.
This really puts a crimp in the Snupin shippers. heh.
I guess I's still stunned. I wish there was someone I knew who I could talk about it with. I checked the KA chat room, but everyone was in the main chat and I didn't want to venture in there...I was hoping to talk about HBP...which I was stunned at the identity of THAT character, as well. But, I should have guessed...
I was really hoping to be proven right about Snape being a heroic character...and now I'm just not sure.
I suppose I'm not as smart as I like to think.

Got a massive response back from someone as SH. But I don't really think it matters to me anymore. I will be giving some serious thought about continuing the story.

I feel so empty, drained and blue.

Comments

[dora-the-nymph.livejournal.com]

*hugs so much*

I really do believe he is good. I may seem crazy, but I believe it. It doesn't make sense to me in any other way. *hugs* Sorry no one was there to talk. We can talk via email or here if you want, honey.

*more hugs*

[dora-the-nymph.livejournal.com]

http://www.livejournal.com/users/fabularasa/27100.html?#cutid1 - yet another thing that makes me believe even more.

[rayvyn2k.livejournal.com]

I do too...I've read some of the theories out there and they make sense. My fic is set in 7th year and now it's obvious that Snape will not be at Hogwarts for their 7th year which is why I'm thinking of abandoning the fic. I don't know if I have the desire to continue it as an AU...
Not that it was so canon anyway, but still...

[dora-the-nymph.livejournal.com]

Well, it's up to whether you continue. Taking some time to think about it is porbably the best idea right now.

And I'm glad you think he's good, because I was worried we'd lost a most fantastic Snapeophile!

[rayvyn2k.livejournal.com]

I'll be a Snapeophile until Jo Rowling convinces me otherwise.

[thestral944.livejournal.com]

Even if it turns out Snape is evil, I will still be a Snapeophile. I'm attracted to his snarkieness. I'm not sure where I sit on his loyalties. Obviously if he made and Unbreakable with Dumbledore, and he went through with killing him, then he's pretty damm loyal to good. I'm sure there was more then just a 'stare down' between them at the end.

I'm still dying to know the answers to a ton of questions (non of wich got answered in this book). Is it 2007 yet?

[rayvyn2k.livejournal.com]

I agree about the snarkiness. I have a feeling he's on the side of good, only because, after reading about a million essays and rants about the book--it seems to me that JKR tried too hard to make him seem evil, KWIM?

As for those answers, the last book better be about a thousand pages. Because that's what it's going to take to answer them all.

[rayvyn2k.livejournal.com]

Of course I meant "for all of those questions" duh.